Sunday, June 20, 2010

Always.....

Always…….. dos and don'ts
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“Can I ask you a question?” asked Appu, my 8-yr old nephew. “Sure, dear!” I replied, waiting eagerly for it to come. Promptly he asked, “What is the safety rule for crossing the road?” Earlier I had heard him cramming his lesson which made me sure of its answer. So politely I answered, “Cross the road at zebra crossing.” “Wrong, Massi. I can’t give you full marks,” he answered with a mischievous smile. Perplexed I turned to know what was wrong in it. “You forgot the word, always. The right answer is: Always cross the road at zebra crossing”.
I gave him a warm hug and he left, but the word ‘Always’ played on my mind like a hammer. It reminded me of all Dos and Don’ts I had learnt from my childhood… I was reminded of my school teachers…You should always speak truth; you should always lead a disciplined life; you should always wake-up early in the morning. You should always do this and you should always do that….. My parents behaved no less than teachers…. always keep to the left; always take healthy food; always keep your uniform clean; always take part in games; always pray in the morning and so many other things….
Is ‘Always’ always to be remembered? Does being disciplined mean that you have always to be so in the strict sense of it? Probably yes! After all if you choose not adhere to it once, it may prove fatal. Say for example;
What if we only once cross the road carelessly and meet an accident and are gone for ever;
What if we once cheat in exam and are caught and debarred for a few years;
What if we once take bribe and are caught and dismissed from services;
What if we once leave our home in anger and are never called back;
What if we once ignore a friend or a relationship and he or she turns his/her back to you for ever……
Very true! The word ‘Always’ in most of the cases is as important as the word discipline itself. At times life doesn’t give you another chance. It feels like,
‘khata lamhon ne ke aur saza sadiyon ne payee.......'
But then how to justify the other aspect of sticking to the ‘Always’….
What if you can’t once cross the road without being on zebra-crossing to save a child from being run-over or to help a blind person to walk?
What if you can’t once pluck a flower to present it to your angry beloved?
What if you cannot once forgive and take a step of renewal of friendship?
What if you can’t lie once that you have taken your meals when you are sure of Roagnjosh cooked at your home?
Do it always and don’t do it always—is it not a paradox, a relative term? May be in most of the cases sticking to it proves fruitful but sometimes not sticking to it may give you immense happiness.... like life lived in a moment. As Ghalib puts it,
‘achhaa hai dil ke saath rahe paasbaan-e-'aql,
lekin kabhee kabhee ise tanhaa bhee chhod de' ……

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Saturday, April 3, 2010

Alienated in their twilight years...

‘Impact of Exodus on Elderly K P Women’

Veenapkoul
“I want to sit under the shade of Chinar. I want to cook on hearth of my home. I want to lie down with all my limbs stretched,” cries Somawati, 75, who lives in a camp at Mishriwala for last 20 years. “Take me to my home. Take me to Kashmir. I want to live and die there,” says Prabhawati, 80 now, who is living in Muthi Camp for last 2 decades. These and many other K P women cry and shed tears in isolation, which definitely go unseen by most of us.

At the core of their being, they are deeply peaceful, immensely loving, infinitely wise and could be profoundly contented as well but for this exodus. They are the descendents of spiritual heritage of Lal Ded and Rupa Bhawani who are the examples of saints carrying not only spiritual but also rich intellectual heritage.

K P community is well educated and dynamic where females are equally enlightened. The events of 1989-90 in Kashmir valley changed the situation completely for this peace loving community. Almost the entire community left the Valley or was forced to leave in distress resulting them to be scattered all over the country. Presently they are finding themselves on the cross-roads where every road leads to their extinction.

The impact of migration was worse on the women in general but for women belonging to age group of above 50 years the effect was worst.

Lawerence mentions in his book, “The Valley of Kashmir” that Kashmiris normally like to stay and work in the valley, quoting a Kashmiri proverb, ‘Cheri Chu panani kandi cheri pathey karar,’ meaning a bird has content when it rests in its nest, may it be a thorny one. And it is particularly true of any and every K P women. Elderly K P women, who had spent half of their life in Kashmir in their homes, could not actually adjust to the different atmosphere at new residing places, where a big mansion got replaced into a tent, or a small room or a cow-shed. It was like being uprooted at the fag end of their life or at a stage of the life where one feels, “jaida gyi, thodi rahi,” where it is very difficult to get new lease of life by being replanted at a new soil.
If you uproot a tree which has already spent half of its life in one soil under a given environment and plant it at another place, it may not survive at all or if it survives it will only find itself struggling to adjust to the new soil.

1. Paradise Lost

Elderly K P women lived in one particular environment, spent their life in a specific neighbourhood, had recognition in their own way and their small paradise comprising of their homes, hearths, cows, fields, neighbourhood was lost. This is true of K P men as well but I will deliberate upon the fact that why it told upon elderly women more than their counter parts.

A. Less educated and mainly home makers:
The women of above 50 years of age group in 1989-90 were mostly not highly educated and hence did not belong to service class. They were attached to their household activities, which got crumbled at once. Loss of homes, hearths, fields, animals and in some cases life also, devastated them and put them into a psychological trauma.

B. Loss of joint-family system:
This age group of women was used to joint-family system in Kashmir. The joint ancestral properties provided the binding factor which forced them to live together. The loss of properties is the major grievance of all k Ps, the majority of whom have to continue against tremendous economic odds. But for elderly ladies it is an unbearable loss of companionship of each-other which they would enjoy in joint-families. The exodus resulted in nuclear families leaving these elderly women to lonliness which resulted in their depression.

2. Language Problem

Since most of the Elderly K P women at the time of migration were not literate they hence had to face the language barrier. The community had to shift to different parts of the country and in J&K State they mainly shifted to Jammu province. There was a big communication gap between Jammuites and these K P ladies.
There are hundreds of examples to quote; like ‘Baccho ko khaya, Pandit ji ko khana hei’ etc etc, where because of language barrier they become laughing stock for others. May be at the face of it they also join the laughter but basically they are sensitive in character and it would pierce them somewhere deep inside creating ailment like stress.

3. Irreparable Loss

A. Family privacy and values:
The social set-up of Kashmir is known for its family privacy. People live in the houses with closed environment for outsiders. They believe in complete private family life where outsiders cannot peep, indulge or interfere. Every family has a set of defined family values which are passed from one generation to another. And women are supposed to be the guardians of family privacy and values. This is true of K P women as well. Exodus made them to seek shelter whatever and wherever they could get it, resulting in its complete erosion. For elderly women who had spent more than half of their lives in guarding it, exodus was a bolt from blue which left them completely shattered.

B. Loss of cultural ethos:
Culture is the cumulative expression of the values enshrined in the heartbeats of the people in every community. Culturally speaking each woman in Kashmiri Pandit community is considered an embodiment of Lakshmi, the Goddess of wealth and they are honoured, revered and deeply loved.
Cross-Cultural diffusion is resulting in the complete extinction of Kashmiri Culture in Pandit community. Loss of rich culture in the form of customs and beliefs has become a matter of concern for the elderly K P women. They find it very difficult to adjust with the erosion. They feel persistently being deprived of whatever is dear to them and hence find themselves in deep agony.

C. Loss of social values:
Social values can be described as a set of beliefs or morals that help provide for family and society unity. Belief about what is right and wrong or what is important in life as per the definition of society, is what binds people together in a particular community. Social ethos has come under severe strain. Social values are being reduced to a hollow shell.
Questions haunt the women persistently, like; what has happened to our age old shrines? Where are the symbols of architectural grandeurs in the form of temples? Has every thing been destroyed? The community has been robbed of soul.

Insecure Future

A. Inter-community marriages:
Inter-community marriages have disturbed the peace of mind of elderly K P women. Since the community is scattered globally, the young generation has no inhibitions in getting married anywhere in any community. People from across the world are getting into the K P families resulting into confusion and chaos in the family set-up. This has in particular damaged the integrity of elderly women who find themselves alien to this new atmosphere. They find themselves compromising at every step with the result they have withdrawn to themselves and feel very insecure in the old age.

B. Troubled homes:
Inter-community marriage may results in troubled-homes, because of the fact that the two people with different social set-up and background naturally have different priorities, different tastes, different customs and different beliefs. In the long-run, it is observed that they find it difficult to adjust with each other and may also result in break-up in marriages or troubled atmosphere in families. The axe falls on the aged parents, particularly on mother who has always held high hopes from her children. She sees her future in them and therefore the crumbled and broken marriages break her dreams.

Personality Shattered

The ‘strong-authoritarian-creating-awe’ type of personality of K P women, for which they are known and respected, is completely, by and by, undergoing a change.
It is taking shape of a timid, self-centered and weak personality.

A. Identity crisis:
There goes a Kashmiri saying, ‘yus yas na zani, su tas kya mani,’ meaning that an unknown personality is only just another person in the world whom nobody bothers about.
Migration has created an identity crisis for KPs as and they feel that their identity was tied to the valley. It has affected mainly the women who are home-markers. The service class could find some outlet to prove them, though it took quite a long time and effort but for elderly women who otherwise would command respect they had earned in valley, found themselves belonging to no one.

B. Beauty endangered:
Kashmiri women are known for their beauty, which comes from their within and from the environment and atmosphere of the valley. Like Kashmiri apple cannot be grown anywhere other than Kashmir, in the same way the beauty and personality of women cannot develop the way it is famous for anywhere else in the world.
We all appreciate that ‘face is the index of mind’. When mind is disturbed and lost, the beauty is obviously endangered.

C. Change in dress pattern
Pattern of dressing of women has completely changed. The style of wearing ornaments which were typical of KPs has also undergone a change.

Health Problems

The trauma of exodus has taken a toll on all. Fleeing from their homes and being reduced to living the lives of refugees made them stressful and remorseful. The incidence of stress-related conditions like insomnia, depression and hypertension has increased. Birth rates have declined significantly. Women are aging physically and mentally by 10 to 15 years before their natural age.
Leading neurologist Dr. Sushil Razdan in his study on prevalence of dementia in K P migrant camp found that it is 6.5% among KPs above age group of 60 years which is reported to be higher than any where else in India. Skin diseases, sun strokes, heart attacks are the other common diseases found prevalent in this age-group, and the root cause is the migration and related impact.

RECOMMENDATIONS

· Help from NGOs
· Setting up of:
Guiding and counseling cells
Rehabilitation centers
· Formation of self-help groups

Conclusion

Somawati and Prabhawati had left homes only to be back within a month or so. They and others never knew that months will change into years and years into decades. They have lost patience but not hope. They dream with their eyes wide open of going back to their homes and hearths. May their dreams come true! Let the good sense prevail all around to make a safe return of KPs to their homeland. They have lost 20 years of age in exile. Enough! Let them live in their homes now.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

remembering 3,6

Remembering 3,6

“Budget meeting,” I exclaimed to myself. I had to attend this kind of meeting for the first time. It took us almost a week to gather information and inputs to prepare budget estimates and revised budget estimates. I felt very enthusiastic to attend the meeting.

Various heads of institutions were assembled in a conference room at a given venue. Some budget experts were also present, as it was more a kind of workshop on how budgets are framed than the actual allocation of funds. I seated myself in a chair trying to understand and feel the pulse of a few people around. Some seniors seated themselves very confidently but some novice in the field like me, were in dilemma and looking forward to the meeting with all curiosity.

Finally the chairperson seated himself comfortably and the meeting started. The budget experts started the discussion resolving the problems one by one receiving in between the comments from the chairperson as well. Tea was served – very refreshing and making it easier to understand what seemed otherwise very complicated in nature. It continued for almost three hours, when somebody announced lunch. The break seemed to be the most needed one and we hurriedly got busy in collecting the papers spread in front of us. Before we would disperse, final word came from the chairperson, “I know it is a tedious job to prepare budgets. However the best thing to remember is the formula of 3,6 which makes everything easier and comfortable.”

I heaved a sigh of relief. At least there was one formula, mathematical in nature, which was going to help us out. But what was the formula 3,6 all about? I had to know and understand. Whom to ask? I turned to one sitting to my right, then to my left seeking the explanation but to my bad luck they also did not know.

I proceeded for lunch making sure that I meet some seniors who definitely might be having some understanding of it. With a plate in my hand in which I had placed some eatables, I tried to explore the secret of the formula 3, 6. “Take it easy, madam,” was the answer from a few. But how could one take it easy? I had simply to swallow the food as I could not cherish the delicacies without knowing the answer to it. It made me restless. However I had one solace that people like me will sure be asking the explanation of the formula from the budget experts in the meeting.

Again, we were all seated in the conference room and the discussions followed. The experts would answer one by one to the problems of every individual. But none discussed the formula. What was it? I could feel a lump in my throat all the time. Finally it was my turn. The budget expert guided me and almost concluded to turn to the other side when I suddenly heard myself asking, “Sir, kindly explain the 3,6 formula.” To my surprise he too showed his ignorance. A pin drop silence prevailed and we all turned our heads to the chairperson. In reply he narrated an incident which I would like to share with you.

He and his boss went to mosque to offer prayers on one Friday. They reached slightly late because of their busy schedule. The mollvi sahab had started the sermons. Since both of them happened to be known personalities, he recognized them. They became the focus of every eye. While both of them were feeling a little uncomfortable for being late, the mollvi sahab came to their rescue by saying, “Both of them as we all know, are very busy. It does not matter if they are a little late but what matters ultimately that they remember 3,6 – that’s what finally one requires at the time of ultimate rest. Your achievements, struggles, name, fame and everything which is materialistic in nature do not help while one breathes one’s last. All that is required is a grave, 3 feet by 6 feet piece of land, to get buried into.”

Our chairman took a pause after narrating this event, closed his eyes, smiled, making every one present to smile and finally wanted the proceedings of the meeting to be continued.

I took a deep breath. My restlessness had been taken over by tranquility. Very true! The formula of remembering 3,6 could do wonders -- it could bring peace of mind and contentment in our lives. It could work in all walks of life even in the formation of budgets – but only if we would remember this ultimate truth every time and everywhere!

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